Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My life update pt. 2

I changed schools. I left Portfolio Center and now I attend The Creative Circus. It was a really hard decision. It was one I wish I didn't have to make. But I just felt like I would get more for my money over at the Circus so I left. Some students and faculty back at PC were cool about it, some were not. I wish it didn't have to be that way. I wish people didn't take it however they took it that resulted in a change in their attitude. But oh well, crap happens.

I like Creative Circus but I'm new. That's the part I don't like. Yeah, I was new at PC once, but I came in with a bunch of new people. So we had each other. Now, at Circus, I'm a transfer, which is extra awkward (in my opinion). People are nice but I feel as though everything I do is being judged, by the students. I think people are looking at my stuff, like - is this how they're doing stuff over at PC? And I feel stressed about giving PC a bad name. I don't know why, I just feel that way. It could be all made up in my mind, but I doubt it.

Hopefully, next quarter I won't be so new and so out of my mind with life worries that I can push forward with building the best book I can build. In the end, I'm not so worried about making friends, I just want a damn good job. And I have no problem saying that I got my education from both PC and Creative Circus. It is what it is.

But just when I thought I was getting used to Circus life, my mom called and gave me something new to worry about...

8 comments:

BLESSD1 said...

Hey...for what it's worth, I think you could always have a career writing for some of these rappers. LAWD KNOWS I'd like to hear some more fresh, innovative stuff, and you're way more talented than a whole mess of em :-)

Anonymous said...

I have some questions about schools, Tracie! Can you please email me as soon as you get a chance? burkology@gmail.com thx

John "JP" Pickens said...

You know how to reach me Lex

anonymousnupe said...

How you jis gon' leave a bruva hangin' like dat?! It's like an episode of Lost or Prison Break. I'm prayin' for your health, though. And I'm not just sayin' that.

angie said...

tracieeeee i'm glad you made the move and i hope it all works out. i transferred colleges my sophomore year and it was definitely awkward trying to make people be my friend when they already had their own little cliques. but you are so wonderful they will be fighting over being your friend in no time!

i miss you!

Anonymous said...

"*uck 'em, girl…*uck 'em…" (c) martin lawrence, a la you so crazy.

Anthony said...

Do you, TM.

It's your money, and you have to get what YOU consider is the best value for it. I have a good friend that went to CC and I have friends that attended and presently attend PC; by all accounts, they are both great places to learn your craft.

The bottom line is where do you feel best-situated to achieve your goals. If that's CC, then so be it.

And if folks can dig it, in the words of Michael Watford and Masters At Work: "fuck'em if they can't take it..."

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http://www.obsidianhustle.com

Mary Campbell said...

you rock and I am sure whatever decision you made was the right one for you. so many people just sit in misery griping over this or that....you made a decision...and I'm with Anthony's comment, ""fuck'em if they can't take it..."