Monday, November 24, 2008

Back off the wagon.

The Kool-Aid man is my dealer.
The Kool-Aid is my drug.

I had weened myself off of Kool-Aid several months ago because I was on the weight loss tip and needed to cut my sugar intake. But I couldn't dare throw those packets of powdered goodness away. Recently, I had absolutely nothing to drink and wasn't about to venture out into the Atlanta cold to purchase something. I thought about what I had at home. I had sugar and my kitchen faucet was working. And I had never forgotten about the Kool-Aid packets at the bottom of that drawer. The answer was right in front of me.

I hadn't forgotten my recipe. And the preparation all came back to me as if I'd never stopped making it. Hot water, so the sugar will dissolve. Tropical Punch and Lemonade blend. Fill a cup with ice to prepare for the both warm and cold first sip.

And oh, what a good first sip it was.
And a good second sip.
And all the following sips.
Until it was gone.
Not the cup, the pitcher.

And I made another. And another.
I haven't stopped making Kool-Aid since.

My name is Tracie. And I'm addicted to Kool-Aid.

Monday, November 17, 2008

I don't want to be famous.

Youtube is weird.
People think they know me.
People want to know me.
People recognize me when I'm out.
All because I talk about my life on the internet.
When it's written like that, it doesn't sound so smart.
It sounds like something my mother would warn me not to do.
"Don't do that Tray, you never know who's watching you." My mom would say.
And she may be right.
I mean, I'm normal.
But that doesn't mean that some weirdo-maniac-stalker type person isn't out there in youtube-land falling in love with me.
And all my different hair-do's.
I've already had one semi-nice-but-also-strange guy call me his "cyber wife," uhm, what's your name? Because I don't know you and I never got my wedding ring.
I've had people try to get my address to send me "gifts."
I've had people recommend places and times and dates for me to go out to eat, probably because they were sitting there with knife and binding rope in hand.
I've had people try to offer me jobs on TV, all they needed me to do is meet them for an "interview."
I mean, don't get me wrong, I understand that I'm out there in the world now.
People tune into me. People miss me when I'm gone (or at least they say they do).
I have 2051 people who subscribe to my videos (as of Nov. 17th). And there's probably 2040 people subscribed to me whom I've never met in person.
I like making my videos.
But I don't want to be famous.
I don't want to be famous enough for people to want to sleep outside my house until they die. I don't want to be famous enough that my life isn't just my own anymore.
Can youtube do that?
You bet your life it can.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

What's the skinny on me?

I wish I could look that happy on a scale.
I've been struggling with my weight since I can remember. I grew up on Jenny Craig food (because my mom was dieting, not me) and skim milk. And when my mom and I moved from Chicago to Mississippi, she started cooking a lot of things I just wouldn't eat. I can remember coming home from school one day and my mom was de-furring a DEER in our kitchen, that her husband had hit with his car (I think on purpose) on his way home. And if that doesn't make you want to live in Mississippi, try cooked squirrel and rabbit and ew, raccoon. Needless to say, when I got a car, any fast food place was where I was headed. So I fell into a fast food trap. I don't dislike any fast food. As much as I try. My least favorite place is Arby's, but if I went there I could find something I like easily.
In my family, there are the big women (me, one of my cousins, my mom, and my gramma) and the skinnies (everybody else). I guess I'm not as big as I used to be; I have dropped a pants size from this time last year. But I'm no where near where I want to be. Where I've resolved to be every New Year since I was 18. This weight thing has claimed so much of my life. I've tried everything, too. I guess the only thing I can to is keep trying.

Side note: Is it wrong that I have a pair of skinny jeans? heh.

Monday, November 10, 2008

History has been made. And I'm alive!!

What can I say?
Barack Hussein Obama has been elected the 44th president of these United States. I must admit when I voted for him, I felt proud. I think I even smiled a little bit, okay, a lot. I would've voted democratically no matter who had won the primary, but yeah, it felt great voting for an African American president in my lifetime. Here it is 6 days after the votes came in and I think I'm still in shock.

Just seeing the jubilation of people all across the nation on TV. Calling my mom and hearing her tear-filled testimony of how she'd learned the news. It's just more than anyone could've expected, I think. I don't ever remember time (since I've been on earth) that our country was so excited about the president we chose to elect. I swear this is gonna be a holiday. You know, just like how Washington and Lincoln used to have their own holidays before some hater lumped it all into President's Day.

I was talking to some of my old classmates from PC the other day and they brought up a GREAT point. One of them mentioned that Barack was initially Michelle Obama's intern. Michelle has some political/leadership experience of her own. So maybe Michelle should pull a Hillary and run for president after Barack has hopefully completed his 8 years. That would be AWESOME! Because then I could vote for both a black man AND a black woman for president in my lifetime. Boy, my grandkids are gonna get an ear-full. Heh.

Friday, October 31, 2008

My neck! My neck and my back!

It all happened so fast. Perhaps as all car accidents do.
Some pedestrian (or stupidestrian, as I like to call him) decided that it was a good idea to take a leisurely stroll across Howell Mill during rush hour. Not at a light, mind you, but at a randomly placed crosswalk in the middle of the street. (I blame the city of Atlanta for painting that there.) The van in front of me didn't see him crossing the street until it was almost too late, so he slammed on his brakes. Which, in turn, made me have to slam on my brakes. But thankfully, I stopped before I hit the van. Unfortunately, the guy behind me wasn't so lucky.

I finally had my first car accident.

And let me just say that Saturns ROCK! The other guy's car was all messed up. I mean broken headlight, scratched up everywhere, and what looked like a broken hood. My car, a lovely little Saturn VUE, had no dents, no scratches, no nothing really. I saw a little scrape and that was it. And I was fine, too. I instantly had a headache but I think it was from the stress of being in an accident. I told the guy I was okay and that we didn't have to exchange information, considering that his car was the messed up one. At first, he seemed as though he was trying to act like it was my fault. Saying stuff like, "Don't worry about it..." and "Thanks for pulling over." I'm thinking to myself, YOU HIT ME, BUMHOLE! Get over yourself! Geez. But anyway, I'm fine. My back is fine. My neck is fine. And some nachos that I had just purchased from Willy's were also fine. (I did the "Mom reach over and save the passenger" move.) YES!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!!

Just an FYI.
Get at me dog!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Blog Postponed!

Until further notice.

You can, however, catch me Monday, Wednesday, and Friday on Youtube vlogging (that's video blogging for those not up on the new lingo).

Check out MY CHANNEL for the Friday Rap Up because I will not be posting those here anymore either.

Soon, I'll be back. Hopefully blogging about my job search.

Thanks for reading guys. Go watch my videos.


Friday, March 28, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Insomnia

Friday, March 21, 2008

Friday Rap Up - I paid my car off.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Friday Rap Up - I ain't do nuthin this week.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Friday Rap Up - TWA

Sunday, March 2, 2008

I did it! My Big Chop.

Friday, February 29, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Oversleep

I overslept and missed a make-up class on Wednesday.
That pretty much sums up my week.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

My life update pt. 3

She called to tell me a huge tree fell on our house during a recent storm. It was actually good that she was at home because she was supposed to be out here in Atlanta for my biopsy, but I told her not to come. (Psychic again? No. My friend who's gone through it before said it wasn't "mama I need you" type of pain.)

The tree plowed through our house. So for a second, my house was a tree house. There were branches in my room and bathroom which is on the total opposite of the house where the tree fell. When I first got the news and after the MooMoo said she (and my doggies) were okay, I didn't worry. I just thought, geez, when it rains it pours in my life. But then later that week when temperatures dropped below freezing in Mississippi, I started to worry. My mom was freezing at night. My dogs were freezing too. There's nothing like looking up at the stars from your bedroom.

Eventually the tree was removed and a tarp was placed over the roof. Insurance is helping my mom pay for the roof rebuild, but now I don't know if I'll be able to pay for the rest of my school.'s never ending.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My life update pt. 2

I changed schools. I left Portfolio Center and now I attend The Creative Circus. It was a really hard decision. It was one I wish I didn't have to make. But I just felt like I would get more for my money over at the Circus so I left. Some students and faculty back at PC were cool about it, some were not. I wish it didn't have to be that way. I wish people didn't take it however they took it that resulted in a change in their attitude. But oh well, crap happens.

I like Creative Circus but I'm new. That's the part I don't like. Yeah, I was new at PC once, but I came in with a bunch of new people. So we had each other. Now, at Circus, I'm a transfer, which is extra awkward (in my opinion). People are nice but I feel as though everything I do is being judged, by the students. I think people are looking at my stuff, like - is this how they're doing stuff over at PC? And I feel stressed about giving PC a bad name. I don't know why, I just feel that way. It could be all made up in my mind, but I doubt it.

Hopefully, next quarter I won't be so new and so out of my mind with life worries that I can push forward with building the best book I can build. In the end, I'm not so worried about making friends, I just want a damn good job. And I have no problem saying that I got my education from both PC and Creative Circus. It is what it is.

But just when I thought I was getting used to Circus life, my mom called and gave me something new to worry about...

Monday, February 25, 2008

My life update pt. 1

I know it's been awhile since I've written something. I just haven't really been myself. The fun-loving, happy-go-lucky, always smiling Tracie hasn't been around lately. I've been going through a lot.

The main thing: Remember back when I wrote about my visit to Planned Parenthood? How it was the greatest pap visit EVER? Yeah, so I should've known something would go wrong. My pap smear results came back abnormal and after more testing it was clear that I had to have a cervical biopsy. I learned that I would need the procedure back in January (around the time school was just starting back) and I couldn't stop thinking about it. It didn't help that my mom told me that my grandmother found out about her cancer through an abnormal pap. It also didn't help that cancer runs through our family like crazy. My mind went all over the place. I thought, what if I'm the first young person in my family who gets it, what if after all these years of being on birth control pills I'll have to have a hysterectomy before I even get the chance to have any kids, what if...

The biopsy sucked. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Well, maybe my worst enemy. I still don't know my results (which probably sucks more than the biopsy itself). I haven't been able to focus 100% on school. My work has suffered and probably at the worst possible time. A time when people are looking at my work and really judging me. I mean really, judging me - all across, up and down.

But that, folks, is a different story.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Friday Rap Up - 10 year class reunion

My high school class used to be so tight.
We won EVERY class competition from our 10th grade year on.
We were the best, in everything.
10 years later....yeah, uhm, not so much.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Mystery Man

I got some Valentine's Day gifts y'all.
It was a surprise to me. I was expecting yet another non-eventful V-day. But alas, I got some presents! Yay!

I really have to update everyone on my life because some things have changed. I haven't been focused on writing really (or school for that matter) and that's so unlike me. But with good reason. I'll fill you in later, hopefully.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I should've thought of this...

Col-Pop: The Future of Fast-Food Technology from Adam Kuban on Vimeo.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

My favorite superbowl commercial...

The Tide-to-go Talking Stain commercial was GREAT (in my opinion). It was clever, quick, and everyone who saw it, got it. Then it really became my favorite when I heard you could become the voice of the talking stain online. FABULOUS idea!! Y'all know I made like 8 million of these.

Friday, February 8, 2008

My first Democratic primary...

I don't know how it's my first experience since I voted in 2000 and 2004 for the general elections (I must've somehow missed the primary part). But the election this time around is so exciting. Everybody is talking about it; it's right up there with Britney Spears (and that's a big step for politics). My voting experience went well. I went around 2:30pm and there was no line. I was in and out in under 5 minutes. I even cracked a small smile when I placed my vote. I felt proud because I was doing my part in what's bound to be a history making election.

Who did I vote for....

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Have you heard?

I've been getting an email a day about this Bag Borrow or Steal website. You can think of it as sort of a Netflix for handbags. I love a great purse, a great expensive (looking) purse. I only own one semi-expensive bag, a purple hobo Coach bag that the MooMoo gave me as a Christmas gift some years back. So this site did peak my interest. Just think about it: maybe you're going out with the girls and need the perfect accessory - borrow a Fendi bag for $15/week.

I thought my classmate Mer would LOVE this.

I've been doing a lot of real promotional type blogs lately, huh? The Unisom thing and now this. Believe me, I'm not getting paid. Just trying to let y'all know about the things I'm using (or dreaming about using).

Friday, February 1, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Who U Rootin For?

Aaaaahhhh, the Superbowl. Big, strong, strappin' guys bending over, a lot. What more could a girl ask for? I love football. I think my fondness for the sport started in high school when we cheerleaders actually had to know a thing or two about it in order to call the right cheer.

Who doesn't enjoy the Superbowl? I mean, it's a party, it's snack food, it's funny commercials, and hopefully a good game. I just want to know, who are YOU rooting for?

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Good morning, Sunshine.

Lately I haven't been able to get to sleep. I've been trying to go to bed earlier because I have several morning classes where paying attention is critical. So, I finally decided to get some sleep aid, Unisom. I finished everything I was supposed to do last night earlier than I expected and thought it'd be the perfect night to try the pill. So I popped it around 9:50, saw the end of The Biggest Loser, saw the beginning of Law & Order SVU...and that's all folks! I probably fell asleep before 10:30. This morning I woke up at 7:30, 9 hours later, refreshed and alert. This is an amazing feat considering that I haven't seen the 7 o'clock hour in what seems like forever. I usually go to bed between 3am and 4am. So I'm excited to have the whole day ahead of me. I have made a plan for my day and hopefully I'll stick to it as best as I can. Just wanted to let y'all know that Unisom is on point.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Who Should I vote for?

This survey didn't solve anything for me. Hillary and Barack are still hella close. Well, the primaries are a-coming and I've got to make a firm stand one way or another. Maybe I'll do a little research and re-take the quiz. Some of the questions that I just left in neutral, I could probably have taken more of a stand on. We'll see.

Bill Richardson - 78 match

You must be looking for a moderate liberal with impressive credentials. If you live in Iowa or New Hampshire, you could have voted for Bill Richardson. Otherwise, you're out of luck. After finishing 4th in both states, Richardson dropped out of the presidential race.

Experienced in state, national, and international politics, Richardson has been a Congressman, an ambassador to the United Nations Security Council, and is now the governor of New Mexico. He is pro-choice, strongly favors rights for the LGBT population, advocates for affirmative action in government contracts, and even championed the idea that Congress should revoke the original authority it gave to go to war with Iraq. Richardson also supports the death penalty and gun ownership rights.

Hillary Clinton - 74 match

Hillary Clinton is a liberal democrat who is unpopular among conservatives for advocating universal health care, abortion rights, and civil unions. She is resented in the anti-war crowd for having authorized a military strike in Iraq and not apologizing since. People see her as power-hungry and willing to do anything to get to the top, even stay with her unfaithful husband. However, Clinton has 8 years of experience in the White House, 25 years in national politics and is currently serving her second term as a popular New York senator. She knows how to make and deliver policy which puts her ahead of the inexperienced presidential hopefuls.

Barack Obama - 71 match

You must be ambitious and idealistic, like Barack Obama. Obama is a liberal democrat who, unlike his rivals, opposed the Iraq war from the start. With only 3 years in the Senate, his inexperience worries some and sometimes reveals itself in the debates, but he also has the charisma and popular support that the others lack.

Take the test.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Get Boo'd Up

Another one of my resolutions for this year was to get boo'd up. Translation: Get me somebody to love on. Heh. I'm still working on this one.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

A letter to Iraq.

I met a guy online yesterday. He sent me a Yahoo instant message and we chatted for a while before he let me know that he is currently serving in Iraq. He was really nice (and cute) and we actually had some great conversation so I was pleasantly surprised. Then he asked me something that took me back a little bit; he asked if I would write him a letter.

OF COURSE!!! I probably haven't written a letter to someone since 10th grade, but I love (LOVE) writing letters. With everyone having email, IM, and all this newfandangle technology, the art of letter writing has almost become extinct.

The thing is, I don't know this guy. We did chat for about 2 hours, though, so I know a few things. I know he likes music and women with dimples. He went to Morehouse and before the Army he worked at CNN. Usually when you write a letter to someone, you know them. You share some interests, know the same people, have memories together, something. With this guy, I don't have the luxury of any of those things. I guess I'll just write from my heart.

I'm sure he'll be excited to receive something at mail call, in the same way that I'm excited to be writing a letter to a soldier in Iraq.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

The Ex Factor.

As you all know from previous posts, I have an ex-boyfriend. A major ex-boyfriend, considering the fact that we were together for 7 years. But I don't think I've ever mentioned my previous ex. He was my "thug love." The guy that got caught undressing me in my bedroom when I was 15, the guy that "borrowed" some of my checks and said he'd let me know when I should report them stolen. This was also the guy who gave me his entire semester's book of math homework to do two days before it needed to be handed in, and blamed ME when he didn't pass.

They say when it rains, it pours. And they were not lying. I received a random phone call from "thug love" one day last week. We talked it up, chatted about old times and WHAM!! He hit me with, "So when can I come visit you?" Huh? Really? Because I haven't seen you in 10 years. So I kind of tip-toed around the question and we concluded our conversation nicely.

As I was saying bye to "thug ex," "Major Ex" beeps in. I'm thinking to myself Is today Ex's Day? (Which should totally be a day, if it already isn't.) So I click over, and tell him how weird it was that he called because I'd just gotten off of the phone with the other ex. I told him "thuggie" kept coming at me with his whole "second chance skit" and I wasn't feeling it. "Major Ex" asked if he was also guilty of the "SCS" when he calls me. Easily I replied, "Yeah." I don't know if he thought I would be so direct about it, but who cares. Then, as if I'd reeled him in with some sort of possibility bait, he starts going on about how people that were together as long as we were shouldn't just lose all communication. He wanted to see me. He still had love for me. Blah, blah. And for a second, just one, I found myself agreeing with what he was saying. What could be the harm in meeting for lunch? I mean, we were together for 7 long years. And we hadn't seen each other since we broke up. Why not?

**record scratch**
He has a girlfriend. It's not we couldn't be friends regardless, it's just that his motto is "Men and women can't be just friends." And there it was. I knew he wouldn't be telling his girl about our meeting and I didn't want to be the ex who was having secret meetings with her man. EW. That is sooooo not me.

Maybe he doesn't think we broke up fairly; maybe he feels I gave up too easily; maybe he thinks we should have never broken up. But I don't. That's why I don't call you, that's why I don't want to meet up with you, and maybe "Major Ex," just maybe, you need to try to make the relationship you're in better than the relationship you had with me.

To all of my exes: You are my ex for a reason. Believe that. I've learned my lesson.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Friday Rap Up - 4 pounds

I resolved to lose weight this year (again), but actually do it this time. In order to get 'er done, I've been doing Slim in 6. You have to do one of the videos 6 times per week. I've also been watching what I'm putting in my mouth. I wouldn't say I'm dieting necessarily, but I'm making much better choices. I started the program on Jan. 1st, and my workout coach (from the Beachbody message boards) advised me to only weigh in twice a month. I weighed in on the 15th, and in 14 days, I've already lost 4 pounds and 7 inches (2 whole inches in my waist alone). I know it's going to be a long, hard road. But this time, I think I've actually prepared myself for the trip.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

This tagging stuff has got to stop.

Two Names you go by:
1) TracieMae
2) GooGoo (only by the MooMoo)

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1) Slippers
2) A t-shirt from an old radio station where I worked

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:
1) the ability to communicate openly
2) No-nonsense silliness that any man dealing with me would have to also have a little bit of.

Two of your favorite things to do:
1) Watch TV
2) sing (oh yeah, I'm Beyonce in the shower! YA HEAR ME!!)

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1) A gazillion dollars
2) Someone to cuddle up with

Two pets you had/have:
1) Kitty, my first cat that I named appropriately
2) Armani, my dog, that is the sweetest little pup pup (even though he's huge)

Two people you think will fill this out:
1) No
2) Body (because I'm not tagging anyone)

Two things you did last night:
1) Chatted with a new friend
2) Washed my hair. It's a very long process.

Two things you ate today:
I haven't eaten yet, but I plan on eating...
1) Cheerios, my teacher talked about them in class the other day and I had to go out and get some (oh the power of advertising)
2) A loose meat burger. Remember on Roseanne...yeah, one of those.

Two people you last talked to:
1) My friend Jade. Today is her birthday.
2) My new classmate Ruby, which is ironically Jade's first name....hmmmm.

Two things you're doing tomorrow:
1) Washing bedroom looks like my closet threw up.
2) Working out. I've been doing fabs y'all.

Two longest car rides:
1) Jackson, MS to Charlotte, NC, in the rain all the way. It took me and my ex 12 hours and it should have only taken us 9. And he is not somebody you want to be in a car with for a long time, believe me! Not. Fun.
2) Chicago, IL to Jackson, MS. This is when my life changed. I'm still trying to figure out if the change was for the better.

Two favorite holidays:
1) Crimmuh
2) I also like St. Paddy's Day, AKA my gramma's birthday.

Two favorite beverages:
1) Sprite
2) Koolaid

Both of these drinks are no longer in my fridge...but oh how I love them.

Two people no longer alive who you'd like to talk to:
1) Gramma
2) Aaliyah

Friday, January 11, 2008

Friday Rap Up - I don't feel good.

So, I'm sick. Not like a cold sick. Not like sniffles and cough sick. It's more like nausea and a major depletion of energy sick. I'm surprised I even got through this rap up. It was really hard.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

The 48 hour challenge.

One of my teachers challenged us to not use our cell phones for 48 hours. He talked about how times have changed and improvements in technology have basically enslaved most of us.

It just so happened that morning before I went to school I called the MooMoo who had called me 16 times during the night. She'd left 3 voice messages and 1 text urging me to call her immediately because it was important, very important. When I called her back, praying that no one in my family had passed away, she began scolding me for her loss of sleep. She claimed that I had her "sick" because I didn't answer the phone (in my sleep). I then found out that she had called my apartment complex to have them check for my car in the parking garage and to knock on my door. Luckily she only got the answering service because she called before the office had opened. Now mind you, I have a home phone that didn't ring ONCE.

Now there's a "call me everyday" mandate.

The newly issued mandate, takes me out of the challenge but otherwise I think I could go 48 hours without using my cell phone. Internet, though, would be a different story. But aside from the occasional call from Kuh Reel Yuh, my friend Jade, and the MooMoo, no one calls me. It's really a sad situation. What's extra upsetting is that I am now used to it.

It was issued to me, so now I issue this challenge to you. Could you do it? Turn your phone off for 48 hours and not use it for anything? Or have you become addicted to technology?

Monday, January 7, 2008

This is crappy.

I finally got my nerve up enough to watch the internet-renowned video 2 girls 1 cup. I don't know if everybody has seen it but I definitely do NOT recommend viewing the video. (But I did link it so that you all can suffer through what I had to witness.) I decided to record my reaction for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy!

Friday, January 4, 2008

Friday Rap Up - Get Tested

Okay y'all sorry about that.
I was entirely beat yesterday.

Anyway, everybody knows I went to Planned Parenthood a couple of weeks ago. Well, I got my HIV test results back: NEGATIVO! Thank you very much! I am not a statistic.
But I got to thinking if I could've been. I'm always safe, but there are times when you're with people you trust that you could be like, 'don't worry about it,' and your whole life could change in that one instant. I told you before that while I was in Planned Parenthood, I saw a young couple who were there to be tested together. I thought the young lady was very smart for doing that (okay, it could've been the dude's idea, but I doubt it). And I think the next man I'm with is going to have to show and prove. I'll go with him and get tested again if he wants me too, but I gotta see some paperwork.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

I just realized...

...that I hadn't given y'all any kind of hair update AND I never gave the link to my Fotki hair album like I said I would waaaaaaaaaay back in the day.

So, it's been 16 weeks since my last relaxer. That's 4 months for the calendar-challenged. The new growth is coming in full force and is basically taking over. I also have not used any type of heat on my hair in 12 weeks. I've just been twisting or rolling and air drying it. I don't even miss the heat. But this new growth is getting out of control. I no longer can just slap my hair in a ponytail, or wear it out without repercussions. The other day I tried the "Rudy Huxtable" big hair thing and I was looking a hot mess. The "Rudy" used to be my thing. Now, no more.
I think I now have about two inches of new growth, but the BIG CHOP is coming soon peoples. I can't divulge the exact release date, but when it comes out...cop that, cop that!

Here's what my new growth looks like today:

Here's the "Rudy Huxtable" look that I miss so much:

Check out MY FOTKI PAGE for more pics. Go there, comment, give me advice, HELP ME!! Thank ya kindleeee.

I'm addictive.

The video that I posted just 4 short days ago has already had almost 5000 views according to YouTube! Wow! That's amazing to me. I also have 250 subscribers on YouTube who want to be notified whenever I post a new video. What a way to start the new year! Hopefully I'll only go up from here. YAY!

So the weirdest thing happened...

Y'all know how I think I'm a little bit psychic right? It was one of those 101 things about me.

Well check this. Ever since I moved to this apartment (last May) I couldn't find one of my favorite workout DVD's (Turbo Jam). I even went on Ebay to try to get it in an auction but I lost every auction where I placed a bid. I knew I wanted to start doing this DVD when the new year started but I just couldn't find it anywhere.

While I was in Mississippi I had a dream...."that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice"....oh wait, child that wasn't my dream, that was MLK Jr. Heh. In MY dream I was flipping through a photo album and my Turbo Jam DVD fell out. When I woke up I remembered it (which is amazing all by itself, I usually never remember my dreams) and I thought about it all week.

As soon as I got back to Atlanta I went to the drawer where I keep my photo albums. I reached in and lifted up the pages of one of them and started to flip through and lo and behold my TURBO JAM was right there. I'd been looking for that DVD for 7 months and I finally found it after I dreamed exactly where it was. I was so spooked. Tears welled up in my eyes, I clutched my chest, and had to lean back on the door for balance. I couldn't believe what had just happened. But for solidified that I'm not just making stuff up; somebody or something is telling me stuff. *insert scary music here*

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

My New Year's Resolutions

I can't believe it's 2008! I graduated high school 10 years ago! Geez!

I really have to get it together because time is flying by, life is short, and blah blah, all that stuff.

In 2008 I resolve to:

-Get boo'd up. It's a term I heard Kuh Reel Yuh say. Translation: Get myself a man.

-Lose weight. I think this has been on my resolution list since '99...shameful.

-Stay HIV negative

-Work harder and smarter at school

-Cut off all my relaxed hair and be fully natural

-Go to Vegas

-Win something (not necessarily while I'm in Vegas; it could be a scholarship or whatever)

The Holidays are over...

My holiday went okay. I wasn't extra surprised by anything that happened, it was mostly just a time to visit people and chill with moms and nem.
While I was in Mississippi I visited two babies: Baleigh and Bria
I've already introduced y'all to Baleigh, but Bria was just born Dec. 19th (I think).
And then on my way back to Atlanta, I stopped in Hueytown, AL to visit my long time best friend's baby Raven. The funny thing is when I was telling my mom about all the babies I had to visit we had this exchange:

Me: I have to go see 3 babies while I'm here.

Mom: Yeah, everybody's having babies huh?

Me: Yup, one day I'll have one.

Mom: I wish you'd hurry up.

Me: Uhm, I don't even have a boyfriend.

Mom: And?

Me: Well, a boyfriend is usually how a husband starts out.

Mom: You don't need a husband to have a baby.

Me: WHAT! Are you telling me it's now okay to have a baby out of wedlock?

Mom: You're old enough...

Me: After all those years of yelling, "You betta not bring no babies home," now it's okay?

Mom: Well, you were in highschool then. Now you're old. You're almost 30.

Me: Damn.

Me and the Baleigh Bop

Introducing Ms. Bria Riley

Bria and her daddy. (notice the little puppy on the couch too, I believe her name is Diva)

Introducing Ms. Raven Amber born Nov. 5th.